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Hello everyone.
I've just had to delete over 1,800 favorite notifications. I simply can no longer keep up with thanking everyone individually. But please know I appreciate every single one of them.
I will endeavor to thank each watcher and I always pay back any Llama badge I receive, but I simply can't keep up with the favorites any more.

Go on then, give me 6 characters to draw fanart of.

Today is World mental Health day and this is probably the best excuse to write this journal.
So this is a little hard to write and I should say right off the bat that I'm currently fine over all, things are getting better and I'm not looking for sympathy, only understanding.

So, where have I been for the last few months?  I've been here, but I have not been myself as of late, I've been suffering from bouts of depression thanks to various aspects of my real life, which I don't want to get into. Like I said, I'm fine and things are slowly getting better, but this latest bout has really hampered my will to draw or create. I haven't found any enjoyment in drawing as of late. I keep trying to finish the current page of the Ever-changing Vale, but I'm never happy with how it's turning out, and the expectations of it is putting me of from drawing it, even if it's just to get it out. I'll admit, I've lost the original passion I had for the project at the beginning of the year and I have other ideas that I've wanted to move on to, but I feel I can't because I still have CotEV to work on which, again is affecting my mental health, causing a never ending cycle.

With work being rather busy and other projects I have going on I also don't have a lot of time to draw as of late. Most of the time when I get home from work, I just want to relax and do something I enjoy, and as I haven't found much joy in drawing as of late I've been pushing things aside which further delays things. I have planned to do some events, but they were all themed around certain times of the year, which have come and gone and/or I'm too late to start (inktober for example) which again is making me feel like I'm failing those that follow me.  I do have plans that I've told a few people, but I want to do this right, so I'll wait until I have everything ready before mentioning it again instead of shooting myself in the foot like I did with CotEV.

I'm sorry for all the delays and all this ranting, I saw today as an excuse to get this out to you all and hopefully by writing this and venting, I can help work on my mental health and work to getting to a point that I want to draw and create once again.